Dance has always been a big part of my life; my mother says that I was born dancing. My earliest recollection of dancing on stage was to the song “Me and My Shadow” and we used top hats and canes. As I got older, dance became more than just pretty costumes and big year end productions. Melodies and lyrics began to move me and I danced to express myself or bring life to the words songs through movement.
Decades later, I still dance. I dance in the kitchen with the girls when our favorite song comes on the radio and I dance on a stage with a troupe of amazing women for charities that inspire us. Tomorrow is a big show for me, my fellow dancers and the charity we are supporting. I am dancing in two group numbers, a solo and duet that is very special to me.
When I set out on my journey to start The Life You Want, I decided to allow myself to be vulnerable and share my personal struggles, triumphs and joys and sorrows as I write about the things I’ve learned and the insights I’ve gained along the way so that we might all lead the life we want. In that vein, I would like to share with you why I am dancing tomorrow night….
When I danced in this show last year, it had been barely a month since losing two people I loved very much. This past year has been full of unfathomable pain and loss. I’ve had to navigate the ever changing terrain of grief without the woman I always turned to for love, acceptance and guidance.
This year I am dancing in a duet that means so much to me because it is a powerful representation of where I was and my struggle not to be crushed under the weight of the pain…
I’m sorry I’m really a mess right now
I’m trying my best to get it together somehow
I can’t stay this way
locked up in the pain that you left me
I’m unraveling looking for things that will never be
Tell me where love goes when it’s gone
Tell me where hearts go when they move on
Suddenly someone is no one
I’ve come undone….
-Haley Reinhart “Undone”
I’ve learned that grieving and self discovery are journeys that do not take linear paths; there’s a push and pull as we struggle to keep even a small piece of what we lost.
For me, dancing this year is about honoring the inner strength and fighting spirit that has carried me through so many trials and tribulations.
I honor my determination to face my pain rather than run from it, no matter how horrible it is.
I honor my innate goodness. My kind, loving heart, my gentle nature and my inner beauty.
In doing so, I want to remind all women that loving yourself is not egotistical; it’s necessary because that’s where our power comes from!
This week I challenge you to go out and do something that makes your heart sing and fills you with joy, energy and power. Honor all the good things about yourself and celebrate your own beauty.
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